>>33452717
And the real problem:

I'm am currently an obese antisocial, asocial shut in. Things just have to change for me before I become some deformed teisted freak down the line, too spiteful to die amd be given the chance to ruin someones life, somehow.

This state of mine is not sustainable. I am not weak enough to fall into drug use, or vice, or Schadenfreude, at least yet. All my negative experiences just eat me up inside. I almost wish these feelings could kill me, rather than maks me more cynical and deformed down the line. What if in 10 yeads I become a Discord tranny? Is that preferable to death? I have been here long enough to see all there is to see. How do those people come to be? And what makes me inmune?