>>7767094
> I was happy with making it through, it gives you a small boost of confidence, I couldn't care less if someone saw it, it was good enough for me and learned a lot.
This is what I struggle with the most. I don't see the point of living if all I'm doing is serving myself. I was passionate about what I did because I was hopeful it would be something meaningful. I'm afraid I'm simply not or ever going to be good enough to turn this into something people will enjoy. (Or at least, will be accepted by publishers thus making it able to be read to begin with) I guess I have one friend who would be happy simply by me continuing to draw and work on this, but I feel like because of him I even have more of a duty to make it something people will like. I think outside of my bad drawing skills I think I have something good, which I don't know if that makes me feel better or worse over all.
>>7767095
> For instance you said you want to improve your shading. Compared to everything else you listed that doesn't sound as important. don't bother with shading until you feel like you've leveled up
Shading is about the only thing I've slightly been able to improve concretely. It was also something that friend told me I should prioritize. It's single handedly put depth to drawings that were originally flat and I really wish that was my only issue.
>used to bitch ALOT about getting crit "too late" and not wanting to redo pages. but really, I was afraid that since I failed the first time I'll fail again.
That's fair, I'm mostly afraid of this because I have to redo at minimum 50 pages and since I am a one trick that basically means redoing the one thing I spent way too much time on because the few friends I have are either extremely busy or not artists. I did many panels and I can't even begin to understand how to properly redo what I spent years on because I'm an amateur, and I have no incentive to draw unless I feel like I can actually obtain a goal.