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The distinction between the agony of perdition and the joy of salvation is subtle. The ultimate love in the form of the divine feminine and an illusory devourer. The nymph and the siren. Particularly with love and sex, all rests on a blade’s edge. The decision to not do something or else to do another changes everything. However, it is the law of unintended consequence.
Try to ensure love by holding back from sex and watch how love disappears. Try to ensure connection by having sex and see how it fades into nothingness.
For all this searching, The Grail and the Divine Feminine, much as it is sought out there - all of that alchemy is within.
Until you learn truly integrative love for yourself, none of it out there can be of any use.