i wish you stayed
i have thoughts about what our future could have been if you stayed in the end
its scary seeing a real time butterfly effect i can imagine all the things we would have done this summer and all the yummy food we would have ate and the new shows that came out i could have sat in your lap while we watched them i see things everyday that i wish i could tell you about or do with you i miss having fun, i miss having fun with you but i feel so lost i wish i could talk to you about my new hobbies and interests
do you miss me?
do things remind you of me?
do you ever smell my scent out of nowhere and tear up a bit?
its sad thinking you can have that connection again with anyone, would you call her what you called me?
why did you give me up so easily?
i cry most nights
i don’t know what im doing
i think i hate you and every time i see you i cry i still think you’re beautiful i miss looking at you i miss everything about you i miss sniffing you sometimes i get nervous and i remember you telling me how brave i am
i imagine you showing up at my house and im just sobbing into your chest i know that will never happen
we used to cry whenever we left each how did we go from that to this
i hate having dreams about u
i wish you missed me and reached out
you didnt ruin my life but definitely gave me trauma and fugged me up in the long run i dont know how i can recover and be nice
will anyone ever treat me like the princess i am again?
i miss how soft and gentle you were
are you better off without me?
