>>149825830 >she lost her best friend
And (justifiably) thinks it's her fault, judging from how she takes care of Doll's body like Doll took care of her parents'.
>>149489740
My read is she thought she could have both Doll's and V's bestiehood no problem and didn't realize the full extent of what Doll and Uzi were getting into. Ended up wishing she had tried to look for her after episode 3 instead of figuring she'd just come back once she cooled her head.