>>213914552
I've dated at least ten women before. I even lived with one for two years in an apartment before we broke up. Nowadays though I don't want any company at all. I can't even enjoy getting a massage anymore, having anyone's hands on me just feels immediately repulsive in a very primal sense. I don't want to ever kiss anyone or be touched or hugged again for the rest of my days. It's just revolting to even consider. I don't know how I've lost any desire for connection but it's been completely gone for years now and I don't think it's ever coming back.
