>>40536864
Anon, I was also a victim of child sexual abuse.For a long time I felt like you on a psychological level even though I never developed a physical ailment.
The pain you're experiencing may be self-induced by your self-hatred. It could also be an astral parasite feeding off your sexual energy.
Even if it seems strange, you should talk to yourself and your higher self. We must locate the root of your pain and then see what we can do to treat it.