I was born to be unemployed (hurt myself at work again but still have to come in to work).
Anyway I'm now (iirc - can't recall exactly when I started again) 5 months HRT.
>>40886954
>Yeah, wasn't the best state of mind I admit..
Sorry I didnt see you'd replied. Hopefully you're in a better headspace now.
>>40937566
Yes, which is why I find it frustrating that crying is difficult for me because it makes it harder to pull myself out of low mood etc.
Actually idk if any other anons have takes on this or do this but I tend to basically hit myself with a flat object (my phone normally) to try and get that chemical release. Idk if that qualifies as self harm or not.
>>40938080
Noted.
>>40936471
I think the belief that you are bad can drive self destruction more than the sort of reverse (ie "i am self destructive so I'm bad"). It's a bit of a feedback loop