>>40763605
anons how do i be normal and actually enjoy things?
i really wanna finish some anime ive been watching, i have the terrible habit of watching the whole show before the finale and have too many series that i havent watched the ending off, it kills me

instead i did a few hours of programming and just watched vocaloid videos on repeat for hours, and scrolling a bit of 4chinz, ive literally done nothing else today.

i just wanna be able to finish something i enjoy, like the stack of books sitting next to me, or the webcomics, or the anime, or the vidya, or the big pile of half written programs and games. why cant i finish anything. im keeping myself up in the hope i can coach myself into doing something i want to do but im getting tired. it takes no effort on my part to even finish a stupid anime why cant i do it.

judging from op i guess i can do all the normal things if provoked, try to go outside everyday on a nightwalk, was getting excersize at excersize equipment in the park but illness threw me off, can cook for myself but if im alone i usually wait until my blood sugar starts tanking lul

i probably have autism and ADHD or something like that, the vocaloid videos with lots of colors and fast moving graphics does feel like autism bait, and never keeping still usually