>>723407313
This is so painfully real it hurts. And it sucks because since white woman mind tricks don't work, I'm not really interested in taking medication either.

The worst part about life is knowing that you have nobody but yourself to blame for why your life is shit. The kicker is if you're a mentally ill retard and you have an unreasonable amount of self loathing, you see the worth in doing any activities that aren't instant dopamine rewards. I know I'd be happier if I moved out. I know I should try to find better employment. I have close to a dozen projects I'd like to continue. But I'm not going to because I have to rely on the one person I hate more than anything to take those steps.