>>214147025
In high school, after learning that I hadn't kissed yet some girls offered to kiss me. This happened two different times with two different (attractive) girls and I refused twice because it felt like dumb peer pressure for teenage milestone points I didn't care about, being the hopeless romantic that I was.

I don't regret my decision although now I understand that gaining experience and learning how to handle intimacy have their importance, and learning how to act and be more confident in these situations could have helped me later on in my life. I still can't help but feel foolishly proud of my sense of agency, having had the free will to choose exactly how much of a loser I wanted to be while society was trying its hardest to make me go with the natural flow. It took a lot of questionable individual decisions for me to get where I am now and I'm in peace with that. This pic is not very related but I guess it has a similar vibe.