>>76458305
I feel the same way. I used to study in college, work part-time, play team sports, and hang out with my friend group whenever I wasn't busy doing those other things. I was rarely home except to sleep and almost never by myself.
None of it made me happy. I hated every minute of it. I hated being around people, I hated the mundane tasks I was doing, I wanted to be alone all the time. I literally had dreams at night where I would run away from everything and everyone I knew.
Now I don't do any of those things, I moved countries, I have no friends, no job, no studies, I'm on welfare and lift at home, I never go outside except for grocery shopping and... I feel the same exact way I did when I was active and busy all the time.
It's all a scam, isn't it?