I don't use this board but it's suffocating and isolating. I typed out so many things but I'm not special or unique. I wish I could love myself or see a future that involved someone. I'm tired of having a mask on towards every single person because no matter what everyone has an agenda. It feels like my life will just be bitter and I have to bury myself in the pursuit of art. I'm tired of feeling like I have survivors guilt over something so fucking retarded as this.