It it possible to just psychopathy max or something? Can an autist not mindset their way through it? Is that not possible? I don't know if I have autism or not, I'm asking from my experience of at the very lease being socially retarded. I was at a restaraunt yesterday with my family and I couldn't look at the waitress and my voice was kind of wobbling as I said what I wanted. I don't typically go to restaurants the last times I did was when I was younger and my parents would order, that spotlight being put on me just sort of put me off a bit. Could have been worse but it was awkward. I didn't even know how to order, I was asked about a side and then just went quiet because I didn't realize I needed to select one. Absolute social atrocity. I'd start thinking about sucide from this if such things hadn't happenned so many times before.

I can handle socializing sometimes. I think there's a mindset I could adopt to do it better, but then hindsight's 20/20 and I have very few moments I can think of where I could socialize in a way where I wasn't suffering deap down.