it just seems to be entirely appearance-based with you though, from what you say

as though being European is merely some sort of costume that you might don to—what? be admired more? assuage your egoic wounds?
what appears to interest you is not our culture, or traditions, or history—not our intellectual, or literary, or philosophical canons—nor our technological prowess, or adroitness at both peaceful living and warfare
'White'—to you—is ostensibly just a superficial countenance; a fair masque that you wish to wear to better obscure what you are beneath

if that is the case, then I agree that you really oughtn't be proud of who you are, but this would be entirely based on the shallow contents of your heart and mind, and not at all on the fact you're a Latino, and a son of the venerable Portuguese Empire
if there's anything disdainfully swarthy or of the lesser about you, it lies within your soul

the fruits and treasures of your European ancestry are far greater than mere appearance, and they lie in wait, accessible and open to you already

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_P562LVTAew