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If you can't create a family, a community or any group then just create. Keep creating anything you can, be it art, thoughts or even jokes. Just do not stop as the moment you stop you as a person will die.
I'm not saying you should give up on romance, in fact you shouldn't, you should always try finding it... but its also time to face the facts that most of you will never truly experience it and most of you will not listen to what I say, most of you will become bitter, middle aged misanthropes who would rather see the planet burn than fight your bitterness just for the sake of bitterness, as I admit, there is no reason to fight it but your own desire to fight the entropy of this loveless universe. And personally? If you are one of those fools who willingly let your heart wither and die because you were too lazy, foolish or afraid then Ill will say that you are no longer a human, you are a husk, a spectator in your own pathetic life and if fate be willing Ill spare the only flower you will ever see in your life for the death of your soul.

I'm in a truly sad state to a point I find it comforting when people at least insult me. Anytime I share any feelings, thoughts or anything remotely vulnerable most of the time I get apathy. No comments, no questions, no discussions, ignored entirely. So whenever someone takes at least 5 seconds to call me an idiot at least I know someone listened to what I had to say. Its also how I know hate isn't the worst thing in this universe but apathy. Hate can be mended, it can be turned, it can be fought against. It can even motivate you to do good; its not the healthiest motivator but at least its there. But apathy is nothing. You can't approach apathy same as you can do against hate. You can't win against it. Apathy never waivers, it never diminishes until you succumb to it; a never ending war of attrition with one clear winner.
This is so pathetic and I can't fucking help it...