I was told in some other thread in another board by a whole other community that I had a lot of potential to be a fun and entertaining streamer but all the demons in my head just tell me to never be consistent with it because nothing will come from it and I'm wasting my time. I streamed all my sessions of expedition 33 and had a guy I know IRL show up and chat and some other stranger that shows up often, but that's it. I wanted to do some videos but again, I feel it's pointless, I will never have a big break and do something in entertainment or the creative field as my main job which is what I've always wanted, and it fucking sucks that I'm just gonna be some nameless shmuck that gets to grind a dead end shit job and then die or kill himself. Any and all "potential" I may have had is all but gone now. I have zero motivation to pursue anything like streaming or making videos, even though I used to.

I'm not throwing a pity party here, I just want (You) to give it an honest try and not be like me. If you're feeling creative then do those videos, if you wanna talk while gaming then go ahead and set up that stream. Absolutely go for it, don't be like me and let stupid shit hold you back.