oh wait I actually don't remember if I posted this itt yet
need a bf to do this to me so bad

>see fireworks tonight while out driving
>makes me think of him
>and I wish we could watch them together
>feel horrible
>getting closer to giving in and finding a grindr hookup to beat me up and choke me and maybe fuck me
I guess it's healthier than turning to drugs or alcohol, right?

is it still self harm if it's somebody else hurting you?

new kino just dropped