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I will try to keep it short.

This time of year (the month of august) always makes me feel uneasy, uncomfortable and anxious. People heading off to their first year of UNI, experiencing new things, moving on with their lives. You know those movies where at the end you see the kids heading off to UNI. You know the “autumn leaves on campus”. You must have seen those movies where autumn at UNI is super romanticized.

I feel uneasy, uncomfortable and anxious because I never went to UNI. Thinking of all my peers doing thing I never got to experience. Sadly I'm a 'NEET' and have become a total recluse/hermit. Lots of people have told me “go outside, meet people”. That is easier said than done. I have no clue where to start or how to socialize. I need guidance, I need to be told what to do. My life growing up was mostly in isolation.

I don't know if it is anger or jealously? Because my life has come to a halt, I also demand that of others. I can’t stand others having lives, fun and experiencing things.

It’s that time of year again. Introduction week at UNI for new first years.
I never went to UNI and regret not having experienced “autumn leaves on campus”.
That scene of a UNI campus covered in the autumn leaves always felt so special to me.

What I hate most about these introduction weeks are:
> the endless boozing
> the endless partying
> the endless fucking

But also the ‘hazing’ rituals (for student organisation) where year upon year, girls have been forced into gangbangs/orgies.
It's even got into MSM, where some student organisation where shut down. This was contested in court and they were allowed to stay open.