>recovering bpdemon (ftm)
>start to become better friends with an acquaintance (straight ftm) who knows my habits and history
>end up really good friends over time, play games all the time, talk to each other about life problems and no judgement
>mentions having once thought of dating me but not seriously
>immediately fall in obsessive love and immediately relapse into all old habits of being terrified of his disapproval
>it's probably really obvious
fuck my stupid fucking bpdpoon life

>inb4 fembrained