Genuinely how do you cope with wishing you were born different? Not in a male or female way but in a personality way, I feel torn between what I am and what I want to be. Sometimes I just wake up and there is nothing that can make me happy, it's almost like there is a desire to be unhappy but that doesn't make any sense. I could try lying to myself to psy op myself into a baseless joy but that feels dishonest and artificial. What the hell is wrong with me? I feel like I lack the things that truly matter to me. Being smart feels worthless, the only thing that matters is being around people you love who love you back. I don't think I am unlikable and yet I feel like everyone dislikes me whether there is merit to that notion or not.

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I want
>them to be attractive to me (nothing super high standard wise, but some non-short hair and a cute face are the most weighted categories in this regard, I can work with a sticc but some curve in the right places are ideal)
>Enough of an interest in health and fitness to maximize our life expectancy and age gracefully.
>Intelligent enough to hold conversation, they don't need to be Einstein or even "smart" just able to critically think and not get lost in basic conversation.
>Some kind of shared interest like reading fantasy novels or something to give us a reason to spend time together outside of sleeping and fucking.
>A medium to high libido, I think sexual connection is really important to a loving relationship.
I don't think my standards are super high, but maybe I am out of touch in that regard. Either way, I'd rather stay alone than suffer someone through a relationship where I don't actually love them.
I think it can all be condensed into someone who aids in my life rather than hinders it, and I the same for them.

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This is you.