>>513271866
Not your personal army.

Also why would you kill yourself instead of doing something to solve your problem? Wanting to kill yourself means that you are at the point where you shouldn't care about anything, so use that apathy to do what you think is necessary to improve your situation without caring about the consequences. In the worst case if things don't improve you can always kill yourself at that point. But you have literally nothing to lose with this mindset.

Regardless, no matter what happens at least you're not a tranny. So things can always be worse.