the dark side is a powerful thing, thinking about how I messed up my life, I should just kms. But it's just like damnation, they get to go to the kangdom you're just not invited, it's not objectively that bad. All my problems are because I'm a massive retard probably. Only by embracing the negative do I understand this, that's why I am ok with being single and lots of stuff I'm just that bad of a person. Especially in my younger years.