>>536980179
The apparition showers him in love, yet he can only feel dread knowing it must either be a falsehood he is dreaming up to stay sane, or a reality burdened by two falsehoods- her very existence based on the idealized version of a girl now gone, and her not-yet lost idealism and belief that he is the person she cannot help but see him as
>>536986474
He would always love her because she is Auby. Maybe more now that she can and possibly will eat scary bugs for him