I am 29 and I have become obsessed with lost youth, a closing window for authentic sex with young girls (aka NOT sugardaddying), and the general feeling that i'll never have any fun stories with friends.
I wish I was 20 again and moving to a new city. I wish I got in a band and played live shows. I wish I got drunk multiple nights a week and tried to sleep with as many girls as possible. Young girl. 19 year old artsy girls with piercings and soft round asses. I hate that im basically in my 30s. I dont want to be what i am. It is killing me.