>>717094598
look, i don't want to argue too much about religion on a Mongolian basket weaving forum but I'm 100% sure that swimmer sliding will take you to hell, if god wants you to meet a certain person or go through a certain trail in 5 years and you instead kill yourself right now then that's clearly a sin and a major disrespect to god, i think it also shows a lack of trust in god which in the worst case it can be said that this action indicates that you don't believe in god or you believe he lacks mercy or wisdom, idk what you went through and I'm not gonna sit here and pretend i do know but i would highly advise against killing yourself.