I saw my ex at the grocery store today. First time I've seen her in person since we broke up in January of 2022. We dated for almost 10 years, meant to marry her, we had been discussing kids. Before even seeing her face I just saw her hair and the way she moved from all the way across the produce section and immediately knew it was her.
She looked good. She's lost weight, which I know was something that previously really brought down her self esteem even though she was never fat. She was buying fresh vegetables, which was something I could never get her to do. She always ate like shit, it seems like she's healthier now. She's as pretty as I remember, and that really fucking sucks.
I don't know if she saw me; if she did, she pretended not to. I was wearing a bright yellow jacket so I could not have stood out more, but I tried to stay as far away from her as possible.
I got home and felt stupid. Like I've wasted all this time not moving on and not bettering myself more. I had actually just come from the gym, but had cut my session short just because I was feeling lazy. I've been doing that a lot lately. Was originally gonna make a lavish dinner with cake afterwards but instead just had a salad with chicken and broccoli then some blueberries for dessert.
I gotta start doing more. Can't keep sitting still.