OP here, sorry for the lack of responses, I fell asleep and only just woke up. I’ll reply to what I can.

>>33518683
I have a problem with shame in general. I think it’s a religious thing, I don’t really know. Trying to unpack that part.

>>33518801
I’ll definitely look into male therapists in my area. I just moved to a new apartment and need to look for a new one anyway. In the past I’ve only ever met with female therapists and haven’t really had much success. Maybe it’ll change something.

>>33518884
The problem is that my girlfriend has been super supportive of struggles I’ve come to her with in the past. In the almost two years we’ve been together she’s been really good about letting me open up and she hasn’t seemed to mind the types of things I bring up at all. I don’t know what changed.

>>33519371
I’m really considering breaking up with her at this point, yeah. This on top of some other issues has really made me realize that this relationship probably isn’t healthy for me.