>>96510176
In Ai’s case, the distinction is all but null. Her Idolon is her, stripped of restraint. It doesn’t really alter her behavior so much as make it explode outwards.
Ai doesn’t experience the Idolon as an external influence, she doesn’t “notice” changes because it feels like she has always been that way.
She’s already obsessive, grotesque, violent when pressed, and incapable of stepping outside her fixation on Shu. The Idolon isn’t something she resists, more like the opposite, it’s something that validates what’s already there.

Her whole system of values is warped. The only true crisis is if something threatens Shu.
All her capabilities, strength, resistance, and capacity for grotesque violence turn outward, because for Ai there is no such thing as self-preservation. There is only Shu-preservation.