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I slept pretty okay. Waking up hurts, though, I guess because laying still for too long messes up my joints.

I think she was thinking of a shingleback!! Ackie and lace monitors, too... She's a little ambitious... I dunno where she's gonna get all the space for them all.

I think by clashing they mean it's bad for my liver, because the one drug I'm on is really rough on the liver and I have to constantly get bloodwork done to monitor it. So anything that hurts the liver even more they just refuse. It really sucks.

It's a functional capacity evaluation is what it's actually called. So like they're going to going to see how much can I lift, how much can I push, how dexterous are my fingers, stuff like that. It's to see "how messed up are you physically" so they're gonna be thorough.

Ironically, I did code!! But I can't even sit upright a lot of the time, and when I have a terrible day, I might not be able to sit up at all, or use my hands, etc. Sometimes it's not even just a bad day, it could be a bad week or month. And no job is willing to listen to "my hands won't move" for an entire week when there's deadlines. It could be solved with freelance work where I can make my own hours and not have to go to scheduled meetings and stuff, but I was a coding noob, so I never really learned enough to do anything on my own yet. I feel like I'm on the very boundary of "can't do anything" vs. "can work with accomodations," but here in America they don't like to help you or give you rights at work so if you aren't the perfect little worker ant they don't want you. I just can't keep up with the pace, basically.

Yeah, it's rough for many. When I was younger and my bipolar was totally unchecked and stuff, I couldn't handle a shift sometimes. I'd just be going psycho mode, it was really bad. I just want to feel productive!! I think that's why cooking is appealing to me lately.