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>Anyway, what were you saying? Oh right, I suck.
Mayby I came at that wrong. You are obviously extremely frustrated and given how generally shit and fucked everything is right now that's understandable, but wallowing in it is self harm. This may sound contrite, but try and take a three day in a national park with no electronics to detox from the system and reassess, or something along those lines that works for you. Banging your head on the glass doing circles like a shark in a tank is not going to help you. This is a snapshot take, but when was the last time you took an actual break from your current cycle to reassess and re-evaluate your means, methods and, social environment for improving your circumstances? Honest question. Not trying to shit on you. As fun as it is here to do some times. I don't think it will help you to continue that pol tradition here. Unfortunately there are very few shortcuts to self help and the people that promise them are usually lying to sell something that won't deliver anything except a paycheck to themselves.