>>41450181
i don’t want to say too much as to not reveal anything but
its parasocial in nature and he creates content on the internet, he is a rather small creator
i talk with him in a discord and sometimes on vc but im such a stupid coward i don’t even speak and use a mute chat he set up for people who don’t wish to talk

its so pathetic, and creepy and awful i feel this way about him but i can’t help it, my heart desires him and all i want is to make him happy. all i want is for him to be happy. he’s alone and he doesn’t have a high opinion of himself at times and i worry about him and his mental health. i wish i could tell him the emotions locked deep in my heart but i can’t because that would be awful and creepy and would stress him out and he would hate me, i just want him to be happy all i want is for him to be happy

i hate myself so much for being this way, i hate my heart for doing this to me, i hate being a pathetic tranny failure loser