>>3997811
Yeah so, I don't wanna powerlevel about my life too much, but as a brief explanation: My ex had a fetish and a porn addiction and to please him I'd regularly have to watch and help him fantasize about things I didn't want to do since I'm asexual. And he knew I was ace. It got really bad at times and there was a lot of manipulation and dubious consent. It left me having really difficult feelings towards intimacy and trust for a long time. Seeing Alastor tied up and forced to watch/participate in something he didn't want to because he's ace hit way harder than I was expecting. So I'm trying to work through those feelings.
>>3997812
I'm very, very sorry. I wish that Viv had a little more self control and left some bits out. At the same time I feel guilty for yucking someone else's yum, so I'm trying to keep my head down about it.