After 4 years of HRT I'm losing any hope for getting better. I never expected to pass or even socialy transition, me being manmoder was the expected result, I just hoped for getting some mental inprovement. For quite some time it seemed to be the case but lately I'm starting to feel the same way I used to before HRT. Slowly I'm losing my ability to function in daily life, I just rot in bed and try to withstand the mental pain. I no longer can get joy from listening to my favourite singer bc her feminity reminds me of how much of a man I am. I feel like abomination that should be avoided. It's so embarrassing IDK, what to do with it. Getting off HRT would probably mean instant sui, but I'm also unable to do anything more with my transition than I have to this point.
I'm basically stuck in this weird limbo where I'm forced to live as a freak male with breast.

TLDR. I'm neverpasser and dysphoria has taken away any joy from my life.

>>713214782
>"I told you guys if you don't want to see the chimp flinging shit you shouldn't go to the zoo!"

I'm here for the shit flinging, retard. If people wanted to ignore shitposters they wouldn't go on 4chan and they sure as fuck wouldn't go into Elden Ring lore threads.