>mom's side has a history of schizophrenia, addiction, and mental illness
>have been fine for most my life
>now beginning to show outward signs of paranoia; started having two separate and distinct states of being late last year, as though there are two people in my head fighting for the wheel
>get the feeling i'm being targeted anytime i go out in public with people around, i feel claustrophobic whenever i'm in a crowded store
>inb4 i become one of those targeted individuals who believe they're getting gangstalked
it's unironically over for me, isn't it