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I hope that you're still out there and living a happy life too. I just wish I could know. Sometimes I feel like I should be angry at you for leaving me and so many others in the way that you did. Not that you didn't have the right to leave, but that we at least had the right to a goodbye, to some closure, to know whether or not we were waiting for a return which will never happen. It strikes me as so out of character for you to not be concerned about how people would feel about something like that - which then brings back that feeling of dread and sorrow as I wonder if you were trying to spare us a far worse pain by not telling us what you intended.

I wonder how much longer dA is even going to last. It isn't what is used to be, and I know that the day this page, this memorial disappears is going to hit me hard all over again. It seems ridiculous that I can't let go, but I know that in the final moments of my life that you will be among my thoughts.

I have to let this be the last message I post here. I just had to let it all out one last time for good. I have to say goodbye, I have to let go. I miss you, Jasmine, I miss you. I'm sorry if there was more I should have done or said that you needed, if there was some way I could have helped you and I failed to do it. I'll always remember you, Jasmine.