Thread 34284608

You know the drill, just a thread to say what you never could, or to look for someone you miss

M,

I gave you 5 years of my life and you never left my mind on any given day. You were my everything but your own personal trauma sabotaged our relationship. Your fear consumed you until you became the very thing you feared. Its been 2 years and I still think about you. I hope you have found peace and happiness. And if you ever cruise this site, you know now to reach me. Mhm mhm.
-K

>>34284625
Not my K, but man I do wonder how I fucked it up pretty consistently

S,

I'm still thinking about you, I don't even know if you are still alive or what you might be up to, when I open my phone and look at discord and see a notification I instantly hope it was from you, that you had accepted that friend request and said something, but it's always just one of my friends saying some dumb shit, sometimes I wish you would just accept or decline it so I would know for sure.

Randomly throughout the day I'll think about you and daydream about us talking/meeting and start smiling like a retard, I read/listen over our chats/voice notes and laugh at the absolutely schizophrenic shit we would say and get a bit sad when I read some of the other stuff, I wonder if you do the same sometimes or at least think about me even briefly

I think we only spoke for about a month and a half and you have been gone longer than that now, but I still miss you, I don't think I ever really connected with anyone like that before which I suppose is sad and pathetic on my part but it is what it is, I miss playing fortnite and emoting over people when we would kill them, I miss hearing you rant about your day, I miss that the most, hearing your voice.

If you see this and wonder how I am, I'm doing ok most days, still incredibly lonely though, I did get that haircut and replaced a large portion of my wardrobe, which made me feel better for a bit, I did teach my bird to say that crazy shit and now she won't stop saying it, it's still incredibly funny to me and reminds me of you, I can hear her saying it as im typing this lmao.


Anyway I hope you are doing better than you were and all that stuff.

~R

Ash,

You’re really fucking petty.

- smartest cat.

Elys, I miss you more than you can possibly know. I don't care who you reallt are or if you lied about everything besides your personality.
I just miss having my best friend, you were the one thing in my life that gave me joy and the last 2 years since that day I found out you were lying has been impossible to handle. I message your old Gmail constantly even though it's clearly been deleted. It does nothing to kill the pain I feel inside. I just want you back. I want you back more than I can possibly express.

To be very honest, I think this is the last month I'll see. I can't go on like this anymore. I know you'll never see this but at least it's out there for you to hopefully find one day.
Ioved you more than anyone has ever loved anything. May your life be consistently filled with the same joy you once gave me

Hi Jack. I think about you a lot, I keep thinking I should add you but I won't. I don't know if you still use soc, I don't think you're the type to check these sort of threads. You made me feel important, like I wasn't a freak. All I did was lie to you, I regret that a lot. I hope you are doing better, if you read this and want to reach out please do, but I will never bother you again just like you asked.

Your biggest mistake

Kate, you blocked me on everything, but I still think of you often. I still think of not wanting to let you go at the airport, and how we didn't break eye contact for the longest time until you had walked inside. I was so fucking afraid that would be the last time we'd ever see each other, and sure enough — it was.

And though we were together for only a few short months; I already knew you were the one that could have had the rest of my life. You gave me real compassion, companionship and love that nobody ever had before, but you already knew all that. What's more is how we shared similar beliefs and a mindset, again, more so than any other person I've ever met.

The one thing that really kills me though is that you never got to see what I would have done for us. Maybe you didn't actually care near the end, I don't know. But it kills me that I never had that chance because of the situation with my parent, who will in all likelihood just fuck me over anyway. And it kills me that I screwed up in all these various little ways and that made you question my competence. I know it did.

I would have happily sacrificed my mental and physical health every day working if it meant I could come home to you every night.

I genuinely hope religion brought you the peace you wanted.

Freya, you still post looking for what I gave you. You keep removing me once you feel full of guilt, I saw your posting again, I added you. Talk to me
-N

I turned 40 this year, Jasmine. I was 20 when we first began talking, you were 22. I never really understood why you singled me out as one of the lucky people with whom you wanted to chat outside of dA, but those early mornings for me/late nights for you where we talked for hours did a lot to pull me out of a dark time in my life. I never really got to tell you that. I'm never going to get to tell you that.

I was cautious and guarded when talking to you, wanting to avoid getting too close after some bad experiences and a serious suicide attempt I was still recovering from just the year prior. When you disappeared without warning, without explanation, without a goodbye, it should have absolutely crushed me. But I buried it deep down, told myself that it was just a silly online friendship with someone I was never going to meet in real life, that it understandably hadn't meant as much to you as it had to me, that you'd just gotten overwhelmed keeping up with all the people on here and were stepping away to take a break, that I'd hear from you again some day, that I could not allow myself to feel what I felt and get destroyed again by the loss of a friendship.

And so I just left a joking comment on your empty profile every now and then, trying to make it sound like it all wasn't that big of a deal. I watched other visitors to your profile make occasional comments, then dwindle and fade over the years. (Your -baby-pixie- profile isn't even accessible anymore due to the leading hyphen which screws up dA's new system.) I tried to push you out of my mind and mostly succeeded, but about once a year I'd have a night where I'd forget about sleeping and instead scour the Internet for any trace of you. There's never been anything to find, not even after the social media age began.

>>34285113

And that scares me. It's only recently that I've started reexamining what information I do have more objectively and letting myself consider possibilities which I'd blocked from my mind. I wonder if you didn't just step away from online life, but something worse. Something worse, and you didn't want me to know, you didn't want any of us to know. You just wanted to leave behind untainted memories of that kind young woman who brightened so many people's lives on here. I wonder if that final photo you spontaneously sent me just before you disappeared, that simple unedited smiling photo, was a final image of how you wanted me to remember you.

Sometimes I pull up that photo along with the recording of your voice you sent me, the silly one where you talk about the danger of banana allergies. Then I try to put it away for another year.

Seven years after you disappeared, and about twelve years ago from today I met a woman who reminded me a lot of you. A similar personality, a similar past (both the happy parts and the sad parts you told me about), she even kind of looked like you other than being significantly taller. I married her a few years later, and we have a daughter who is about to turn 4. I don't know why I'm bringing any of that up. Maybe I just hope some day you see this and know that I eventually started living and have generally been happy. There's just a few ghosts that still haunt me every now and then, and they seem to have flared up quite a bit upon turning 40.

>>34285114

I hope that you're still out there and living a happy life too. I just wish I could know. Sometimes I feel like I should be angry at you for leaving me and so many others in the way that you did. Not that you didn't have the right to leave, but that we at least had the right to a goodbye, to some closure, to know whether or not we were waiting for a return which will never happen. It strikes me as so out of character for you to not be concerned about how people would feel about something like that - which then brings back that feeling of dread and sorrow as I wonder if you were trying to spare us a far worse pain by not telling us what you intended.

I wonder how much longer dA is even going to last. It isn't what is used to be, and I know that the day this page, this memorial disappears is going to hit me hard all over again. It seems ridiculous that I can't let go, but I know that in the final moments of my life that you will be among my thoughts.

I have to let this be the last message I post here. I just had to let it all out one last time for good. I have to say goodbye, I have to let go. I miss you, Jasmine, I miss you. I'm sorry if there was more I should have done or said that you needed, if there was some way I could have helped you and I failed to do it. I'll always remember you, Jasmine.

K,

Give me your address in Sarajevo so I can spend less time hunting you down and more time raping you. The castle didn't have any clues.
You know me well enough that this is how our love is. Get to it.

R (D)

i,
Come back
- P

B,

I miss you a lot, you forsook everything we had for moments of frustration with me you had kept pent up for 3 years. You are immature and pathetic, you were always a coward. But I loved you in spite of everything. I did my best to help you be independent and start a life together, but deep down you never really wanted that. I will always hate you for hiding another guy from me, cheating or not, he made a move on you and you shouldn't have hid that from me.

I will never forgive you for destroying our relationship the literal day before we were supposed to move in together. I was not without my flaws, I was far from perfect. I will always wonder why you decided to make everything about me, why it was all my fault when in reality we shared blame, but mostly it was you. You ruined every good memory we had together due to your insane and deluded accusations.

I don't know why you kept talking to me for these 6 months but I'm glad it's over. I am glad you are gone now, I'm glad I asked you to block me because I couldn't do it myself. My best days are still ahead, yours are behind you now. You must persist in the lost world you have created for yourself, good luck you manipulative sow.

J.

Wow, all of you are bad people

>>34285374
Yeah this is soc, the girls that get the most attention from their threads are literal children. It's pedo/schizo central

R,

I miss you and I'm still waiting for you to either get better and call me or get worse , drunk and call me.

Be well,
I love you.
T.

>>34285374
I haven't posted but I'm also a bad person. Just in case you were wondering

>>34284608 (OP)
I,
i miss you even though we barely knew each other, i guess my mind made you the unatainable fantasy to remind me of, i enjoyed listening to you talk about your life and ramble, it made me feel like a man to hear your voice, kind of retarded considering i blocked you haha
good luck,
A

A,
I think youre the only one i could ever be in love with and be truly happy.

Have a nice life though, even though i do hope you die alone as a coping mechanism.
I know that wont happen though, because youre too sweet and cute

I fear i will think about you until the day i die
Godspeed
O.

>>34285089
Aint no way this is about me but if it is drop your tag I've got like 50 something adds

sorry we couldn't make it work. but fuck off already, seriously. you had your chance. now go.

Hey Eris, it's been a few years. I still love you. I gave you your name, after all. You were my first girlfriend and my last love, I don't think I'm going to look for anybody else anymore. Every time, it falls apart because they just aren't you. I know I was an unstable mess, I know I was a bullheaded ass, I know it is on me, but I still miss you, and what we were. I hope you found a better man than me, and I hope that you're happier now than I could've made you. My life is going steady I guess, it's a lot lonelier without you in it. I don't really talk to people anymore. I quit college, no point if we weren't going to have a family. No point if we couldn't go together, right? I love you still, but don't come back, I don't want to ruin it all over again.

-C

>>34285374
my only /soc/ crime is being really annoying

unknown girl at the café

I wish i had gotten off my high horse and talked to you, it's been over six years and i've never crossed eyes the same way with anyone else, i think a lot about how we could have spent all this time together, maybe i would have found out i was imagining things, but now i'll never know

—anon

6,

I'm sorry you had to see that. I've changed I swear. What I did to Nine was cruel and unnecessary. I couldn't help myself, I was just too hungry... Please come back, I need you by my side.

-7

N,

I know you're probably never going to be here. You're probably not even here anymore, but I guess I just want to try it out lol.

It's only been 2 years since you last messaged me. "I don't know how I'm alive either." Well clearly that's not something you'd say anymore wouldn't it. I'm sorry if you are alive and just choosing not to talk to me, I'd rather you do that then you know.

I've always been thinking of our relationship. I think about what we were, and ig in a sense what we weren't. I think about all the hardship you went through, and what good times we've been together. Thought about your ex, and your irl friend. I don't know alot about you, and I don't think you'd want that from me. I understand that. I'm still here. Alive. I got a partner for life now, which I never thought I'd be that lucky.

Hey, if you're out there, can you at least give me an update? At least I know what you've been through. Or maybe just a message of "hey I hate you, please never think of me". Idk, anything. I don't know what I would've done wrong but to know you're alive, that would mean the world to me. And if you're not then, I hope you rest in peace, in a world where you can't even find that.

Love, Y

Note that literally no females post in these threads lmao. Not a single girl that's been covertly addressed will ever read a single thing in this whiny bitchfest of a thread.

Never forget, she has a dozen backups for when she gets bored with your simping ass.

KATE,,,
HI THIS IS RICK I REMEMBER YOU FROM THE CHEVY FORUMS,,,, YOURE NAME WAS LADYLIBERTY67 CAN YOU PLEASE CALL ME BACK I LEFT YOU A VOISE MAIL,,,,, LOOK YOU SHOULDNT RIDE WITH STEVE ON THE COUNT OF HIM STEALING MY POOL TABLE,,,,,,
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BIG BAD RICK
Sent from iPhone 4 using TapaTalk

>>34287266
that plainly isn't even true

>>34287623
Rick,

Hi It's Me Kate. Please Don't Contact Me Again. I'm With Steve. I Love Him And He Loves Me Real Good ... He Did Not Steal Your Pool Table , You Lost The Bet And He Won It Fair And Square , Just Like How He Won Me . You Need To Accept This And Leave Us Alone . Or Else .

-LadyLiberty67

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“Sometimes I give myself the creeps, sometimes my mind plays tricks on me.”

E,
I had a dream about you last night. You gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and I felt a snake crawling out of my chest so I beat the baby to death while you watched. She cried out so loudly that her little screams are still reverberating in my head 17 hours after the dream ended. I wish you could tell me you loved me so I could go to sleep again.
I miss you. You took advantage of me when I was a retarded little kid and now my perception of relationships is permanently warped. But I dearly miss how you made me feel. I don't think I can ever feel loved like that again.
I know you browse this site. Please talk to me. I need you so badly.
b

Alex,

It legitimately has been quite torturous to imagine what life could've potentially been like have I been able to speak to you more. I can not forget you, or your mannerisms or words. Despite being quite a resentful and cold person, it's been particularly difficult trying to forget what you meant and represented and how your being was interwoven into all that I have loved and feared and desired. I enjoyed being yours; I adored the fact that I can belong and exist besides somebody whose mere presence was Meaning Itself. Nothing that I could ever do could bring you back, and for that I recognize that I failed at life. From that point onwards, I live knowing that I, amongst so many people, despite the utter and complete deranged nature of the world, found the most lucid and whole purpose to get up and toil and cry and laugh and worry and enjoy: it was you. How can I breathe with every breath useless and vapid? I feared you. I feared your emotions because it was most transparent that they mattered; that my time and purpose and essence would fundamentally change by whether you smiled today or not. Through your eyes I understood that life isn't complicated; you owned it. I belong to you. I refuse to let go, if it would be the last thing I hold on to: your image a figment and your voice a blip, your sight both forever omnipresent and never again. I still have the games you told me to buy, I haven't touched Undertale or Hotline Miami or Fallout New Vegas. What would be the point of playing them when they're not accompanied by your chuckle and sneer and your look whenever you raise an eyebrow when I do something stupid? I can not experience art without seeing it through you, the way I see freckles that your face and the Starry Night both share. I wish you return to me, I would've loved you much the same, cooked your favorite meal with tears for salt. If not, just be well. It's enough.
-L

"I saw you turning, but I couldn't catch your eye
It's alright, we're altogether"

To A.

Its been almost a year since you disappeared. You left me without so much as a goodbye. I tried everything I could think of to try and move on. Burried myself in work and alcohol, smoked the brains from my head, dated anyone who would have me, but no matter how hard I try to fight it my thoughts always get dragged back to you. They flog me all the time thinking how badly I fucked this all up. K seemed to think you'd be back someday, but my gut says I ruined this so badly that it actually ended up saving the dumbass you felt obligated to stay with even though he makes you miserable. There was a time where vague hope from someone else would have been reassuring, but it's long since been beaten to death. You aren't coming back. I called it all the way at the beginning. When you disappeared forever I said it would be so.
You hate me now and I cant even blame you. I deserve nothing but the cold empty silence of a love I never deserved. I love how even in a letter you're never gonna read I can't bring myself to be completely honest. It's agony. I deserve this hell.
I want you to be happy wherever you go, so I hope I never even cross your mind. Part of me doesn't though. It's a delusional side that wants you to be suffering just like me, and it's the side of me I wish I could excise forever. Libotomize myself so I forget you. So I never exist as a thorn in your side. It's the side that screams at me every night "I bet you're a perfect submissive housewife now to a disgusting pig who deserves a broken jaw." Its vile but i won't deny it's undoubtedly me. I was always envious, and maybe that was my worst sin.

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To A.

Its been almost a year since you disappeared. You left me without so much as a goodbye. I tried everything I could think of to try and move on. Burried myself in work and alcohol, smoked the brains from my head, dated anyone who would have me, but no matter how hard I try to fight it my thoughts always get dragged back to you. They flog me all the time thinking how badly I fucked this all up. K seemed to think you'd be back someday, but my gut says I ruined this so badly that it actually ended up saving the dumbass you felt obligated to stay with even though he makes you miserable. There was a time where vague hope from someone else would have been reassuring, but it's long since been beaten to death. You aren't coming back. I called it all the way at the beginning. When you disappeared forever I said it would be so.
You hate me now and I cant even blame you. I deserve nothing but the cold empty silence of a love I never deserved. I love how even in a letter you're never gonna read I can't bring myself to be completely honest. It's agony. I deserve this hell.
I want you to There are days it gets so bad I feel like scratching my brain with a bullet. I would never do that though. I couldn't put you or anyone else through that kind of grief over myself. I just have to live with this feeling of doomed existence forever. That's the worst part. I hope this never finds you. I hope you go on to achieve everything you want in life and I hope one day I also forget you. So far it hasn't happend and I think that's the worst part.
Maybe it'll work out in the next universe and we can break the cycle and be happy. Until then live a beautiful life and forget me.
-J

M,
I still think about the time we had together. I felt a genuine connection between us and it was the first time in my life that I had ever experienced something like that. but I still feel like it's my fault, like I could have put in more effort to get to know you better. You always said that you would share more about your personal life when you knew me better, but we never got around to that. You can talk to me anytime, I'll be there to talk. Remember, our twinification is not finished
-D

Dear bitch,
I miss you bitch.
Love, bitch.
P.s. you still a bitch

please I'm actually a real convicted pedophile so pleaseeee anyone that knows how to mommy domme a pathetic gooner please genuinely expose me and RUIN my life for being a pëdopig ;w; please mommy :3 here's my pig nose so you know I'm real :3 I'm real I promisee
I need someone who knows how to act like the best evil mommy... always refering to themselves as mommy... always talking to me like I'm a babbling pedo pig retard that doesn't understand words... being very loving and accepting and understanding while also egging me on about ruining my life and cooing about it and being all mommy :3 dedicated to ruining my life no matter what even if I regret it... mommy knows best. mommy loves me and knows how best to make stinky pedo cum so that's why mommy must ruin my life because mommy knows I need it... that loving evil mommy cooing soft things to me while ruining my life because you know it makes me cum makes me so hornyyy
someone I can be my disgusting pedo pig self with showing off my pig nose and mommy thinking I'm such a good pig freak while she downloads it and uses it to expose me :3

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I got banned from discord permanently because I was in a server that got deleted. It’s weird how discord bans ppl just for being in a server that gets deleted without even interacting.

Looking into getting back in contact with people. My username on discord was thepenguinsarebored and I go by Adrien.

If you want to talk to me I’m on signal my user there is boredlinuxuser.82

>>34285452
Have you been posting in teleguard threads?