>>33498323
I think I know what you mean by "killing your own soul" though, I get that feeling too. Often when I am working at my terrible job and wishing I was doing something meaningful. :( You are still you, I promise you will be okay, but I'm so sorry you feel this way right now. I don't know what you believe but I really don't think an experience like this changes much about who you are; you were just lonely and you wanted to feel better. I'm sorry if all of this sounds really silly, I just wanted to say something because I can sort of relate to your situation. How are you doing now? I hope better anon <3