I admit my mood may be a little.. compromised. I was a bit harsh there.
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>>40482274
None of these things are meaningful ends of themselves, are they? They are means to an end. Money is useless unless spent or put to use, for example. What things do you enjoy/value?
>>40485980
The one thing I consistently hear about Crohn's is that people fail to fucking diagnose it. Hell it has meme status on dumblr. It must be so infuriating. But do treat yourself to general anesthesia if you can do so. There is nothing pathetic about not wanting to suffer.
>>40483825
>I get bored right away because of adhd.
Honestly adding exercise seems like a good idea. I get that art can be frustrating especially if it is hard to "stay on track" there. But think of it this way: even for NTs progress in art beyond a purely mechanical/craftsmanship level is.. basically impossible to meanungfully measure or define mile stones for. That makes it fundamentally frustrating. One productive form of engagement I have found for it is to do it for the moment to moment problem solving of it all. That is, to take painting as an example, finding enjoyment in experimenting with brush strokes, colors, perspectives, textures and so on. My creative outlet is, for better or worse, mostly cooking. Some writing perhaps. So my main focus lies in the "I made this" angle of it all. As for productivity; One important thing is to acknowledge that we are not productive if we aren't rested and calm. Feeling angry, miserable or tired makes us unproductive as fuck. I should know, I feel 2/3 quite often recently thanks to issues outside of my control. If I didn't practice a lot of self soothing I'd hop into a wood chipper. Another thing that helps me is talking to people. And focusing on things I have control over, like supporting you peeps in what little ways I can.
>>40482113
Is it finally Ultrakill™? Like, I know it has been rough since they allegedly ousted one of the main creators of it or something?