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Yeah, I definitely would develop weird sores on my face, even though I bathed everyday and drank water and tried to do everything to remain physically healthy. I chewed sugar-free gum so I wouldn't develop dental issues. But I'd get sores that would seep oily or watery stuff. They wouldn't bleed and it wasn't pus, it was clear or yellowish fluid. It was so weird. Like weird mutated cold sores from the chemicals running through my pores in sweat. I'd even take two showers a day sometimes and had all sorts of skin care stuff like Patrick Bateman, but still the sores were unavoidable. So growing out facial hair would cover them up. But still you spend hours in the mirror and your eyes can become like close-up lenses and you're just fixated on your skin, and you discover a new sore and kind of pick at it and make it worse and then it starts getting more infected. And even if you try to eat and stay healthy you just aren't, because you never really rest and you're pumping that poison through your bloodstream and sweating it out nonstop. Your body doesn't know how to heal itself. I'd also get cellulitis in my calves I guess from just not laying down ever. The hospital would think I was using heroin or needles but I'd just always get swollen legs from month long meth jags. And I'd take pills and benzos, whatever was around. I was just all around unhealthy. Really slender but because I never ate properly. GF would push pastries and junk on me and I'd eat it. Developed some bad eating habits that made me gain weight after getting clean. You really want sugar and stuff when you can't get high anymore. Coffee, cigarettes, candy. But it's so much better than the dark places drugs take you. You really feel innocent and like you've come home to goodness when you go to a 12 step meeting after the drugs are out of your system. It's like rebirth.
Of course that doesn't last.