sadly this board is more about memes and lit meta rather than actually discussing lit

hi. I'm super boring. I used to be told I was fun to be around, so different from other people n stuff. I'm super open minded, I can laugh at anything, and I'm fine with talking to anyone regardless of identity or interests. I used to be super social, loud, and well.. cool! though now I've become more quiet, reserved, and distant. the only friends i do have, i barely talk to, simply because i just don't know how to talk. its like I've lost all conversational skills out of the blue for a few months now. I don't know why. the few friends i try and make get bored of me, women and men. men more because they seem to just hope ill send them stuff when.. i don't. lol. not in the friend bizz for that. anyway, with women it just feels like I'm not feminine or masculine enough at times, and for the men who aren't.. like that, I'm just too awkward or something. what do i do?? sorry for the word vomit.