My family's all assholes that put up a facade that everything's okay but every time that facade drops it's nothing but ugly from decades of build up. Part of me wants to just abandon it all but they'd actually be fucking lost without me there to manage their shit. I'm literally the only thing keeping it all from imploding and I'm tired of it.
I'm not contemplating suicide btw, I'm more or less just meaning fucking off some place else even if I'm broke in this shit economy.