I'm almost 29 and I feel 30 creeping up on me fast. When I was younger I had big dreams about going to a music school and becoming a composer for film scores. At a certain point I gave up on that and decided it was unrealistic because my family isn't wealthy and because as decent as I am on guitar I can't seem to find the motivation to write a complete song for shit. Then, I figured I might try and find something else I could do in the music field, but eventually I just gave up altogether. Now I just work a shitty remote job that lets me help my mom out with rent. I had hoped to at least to have a normal 9-5 with a wife and kids one day but then I lost my girlfriend of 5 years and now I'm just at my lowest point. I'm thinking about teaching guitar to get me out of the house and earn some extra cash but all of my real aspirations have completely evaporated.