>>33544304
When you hit rock bottom you only have two options: stay there or claw your way up. Not only have you stayed there, but you've also made it your new permanent home.
I underwent the same thing. She was my reason and my life. What you can do is live for yourself, hang out with the boys, do something about your nicotine addiction/alcoholism, read up the chad life-affirming philosophers like Nietzsche, make fun of life-denying antinatalist fags like >>33545907, push the rock up the hill, etc etc. What you have to realise is that the world stretches before you, filled with adventure and ripe for conquering.
>Suppose that we said yes to a single moment, then we have not only said yes to ourselves, but to the whole of existence. For nothing stands alone, either in ourselves or in things; and if our soul did but once vibrate and resound with a chord of happiness, then all of eternity was necessary to bring forth this one occurrence—and in this single moment when we said yes, all of eternity was embraced, redeemed, justified and affirmed.