>>96316343
If you're reading this and wondering when the bullshit stops and you can do stuff for real, there's good news and bad news. The bad news is that this is more or less how most big things get made- day by day, bit by bit, and it's tedious the whole way through.
The good news is that it gets easier and bigger over time. It's kinda like how novices and masters at a given video game tend to push more or less the same buttons, but the masters do so much more fluidly and precisely.
>>96315126
This is an ego response, and it will poison everything you do. Ego is the sensation that your worth as a person is based on your external results or reputation among others, and the associated mental gymnastics that goes into trying to feed or protect that.
In particular, it is very hard to take risks or work hard with a big ego, because it'll delay the former and scream that you're not moving fast enough on the latter. A lot of artists have huge egos and do good work anyway, but they're extremely prone to burnout and stagnation. Many wannabes never make it that far.
To erode down your ego, pay attention to when it flares up. Avoid rationalizing things to yourself, be honest and inquisitive about how you feel and why you think that is.
