>hate holding
>normally sell when shit gets rough
>want to teach myself holding
>have position that is big red (for me)
>learn to enjoy the pain
>slowly start to enjoy going from HARD red to slightly less red
>and if it goes down hard again, destroying the meagre "gains", just roll with it, because surely it will go up again
is this how it goes? enjoying the pain? feels like the stock version of getting into NTR
