In my mid 30s, most people think Im about 24. Have dated girls 10+ years younger than me for the last decade, all mentally ill goth girls, all came from me being a popular alternative guy on social media in the past. My last relationship with a BPD psychopath ended in March, since then about 5 dates with fat leftist women and one smoking hot eggless 40 year old. Before that 10 month relationship it was all autistic girls, leftists, satanists, fatties too. wtf is going on?

women seem boring on dating apps. every single one "i wAnT a GuY tHaT cAn mAkE mE laUgH" well no shit, ms.generic. or they pick out something ridiculously superficial that eliminates 95% of men "wHeReS mY mUsTaChED bOyFrIeNd?" ok wheres my non-mentally ill leftist gf? maybe its best im single because i actually hate women

I was a loser in HS, smallest kid in the whole school, never had a gf and everyone bullied me

after HS I blossomed and became kind of a ladies man and just never grew out of it, it satisfied my 16 year old self during all those days of thinking i was ugly and less than human. all of my gfs have been mentally ill goth and punk girls who were 10+ years younger than me. I just ended a relationship with my last BPD gf in march.i didnt know she had it at first and make these promises of a future she was incapable of.

i desperately want a child. im 36 and look very young for my age. ill settle for a portly midwestern woman,anyone white and non leftist.

every woman ive gone on a date with so far has been mentally ill and leftist. normal women arent into me because im kind of a specific type of alternative looking guy and no matter how much i tone it down i still come across that way and everyone sees alternative as left wing when im actually far right.

the dates ive had since my last break up:

an immensly fat, 6 ft tall ex dominatrix with an extremely hairy asshole

a far leftist who lied about a family member in hospice to get out of talking to me

a 21 yr old who didnt tell me she had a bf but made out with me anyway

a really hot 40 yr old

dating apps are rigged. i spent money and buy the premium, get all these matches for a week then immediately afterwards get nothing.

next week i have a date with a 19 yr old. ive been on snapchat and all these younger alt girls follow me but have no idea im as old as i am because like i said, i look younger. unfortunately, its going to say im 37 on my dating apps next week, as its going to be my birthday.

ive never been married. the closest was my recent BPD ex. theres been two girls in the past who wanted to a future with me with kids and all that, but they werent white and i cant justify bringing a mutt into the world with a liberal mom

ppl hate me for dating teens in my 30s but many of them got fat an ugly after 23 btw