>>40777822
My best friend of 5 years ended up as my boyfriend. I loved him but I think he died. He tried mushrooms and his entire personality vanished. A few months after this occurrence he tortured, raped me, and caused heavy damage to my liver (drugged all my stuff so that he could harvest my blood for sauce). My whole friend group was kinda in on it and left me there with him that night. He was pretty creative with the torture because he’s an excellent med student. All this happened a few years after I recovered from being bullied for most of my life. This all happened because people get so obsessed with me that they want to physically tear me apart. Fast forward to now, I tried dating again and ended up with a woman that was really kind to me but ended up giving me way too much weed and started choking the hell out of me because she liked the way my face looked. Do I just stop trusting people? I wouldn’t say I “fell for it again.” People are just genuinely unpredictable. There’s no way in hell I can predict if someone is gonna do this kinda stuff to me. I feel that the only way to escape this hell of a world is to kill myself