>>938736208
ok well
> be me, 17
> virgin
> friend group is all female
> massive crush on one girl, my bff, call her s
> s has a boyfriend
> regardless, spend a lot of time w/ her
> one day she breaks up with her bf and i decide to ask her out
> basically laughs at me, tells me the whole time she thought i was gay
> pain.jpg
> continue to be her best friend for some fucking reason
> she gets back with her bf, and he finds out i asked her out
> he gets big mad and she tells me she can't keep spending so much time with me
> make some joke about being her gay best friend
> "hey anon what if you let me paint your nails and do your makeup around him"
> confusedboner.jpg
> next time i come over, i let her my nails and makeup
> i look like a total faggot
> i don't really talk to her bf much but i can tell he immediately relaxes around me
> s starts treating me differently too; she gets much more open and touchy-feely like she is with our other girl friends
> i start going out more with the group
> one day we're shopping and s suggests i pick out some girl clothes for a "fashion show"
> sheepishly agree; pick out a couple of skirts and tops; that night i'm the entertainment
> at this point i'm shaving my whole body, painting my own nails, and wearing light foundation
> s's (old, middle eastern) dad sees me dressed up, doesn't recognise me, asks s "whats her name"
> holy shit he fully thinks i'm a girl
> after this s and another friend d persuade me to set up a tinder profile so they can 'wing-girl' me
> actually get matches
> we all laugh about the big burly guys i'm matching with but inside i know they both straight up think i'm into men
> start growing out my hair and regularly wearing women's clothes
> s persuades me to start talking in a more feminine voice so it's less weird
> occasionally teases me with things like "god i can't believe you actually asked me out lmao"
> "you're basically just another girl anon"
> at some point my mind breaks; decide to start estrogen