I was a loser in HS, smallest kid in the whole school, never had a gf and everyone bullied me

after HS I blossomed and became kind of a ladies man and just never grew out of it, it satisfied my 16 year old self during all those days of thinking i was ugly and less than human. all of my gfs have been mentally ill goth and punk girls who were 10+ years younger than me. I just ended a relationship with my last BPD gf in march.i didnt know she had it at first and make these promises of a future she was incapable of.

i desperately want a child. im 36 and look very young for my age. ill settle for a portly midwestern woman,anyone white and non leftist.

every woman ive gone on a date with so far has been mentally ill and leftist. normal women arent into me because im kind of a specific type of alternative looking guy and no matter how much i tone it down i still come across that way and everyone sees alternative as left wing when im actually far right.

the dates ive had since my last break up:

an immensly fat, 6 ft tall ex dominatrix with an extremely hairy asshole

a far leftist who lied about a family member in hospice to get out of talking to me

a 21 yr old who didnt tell me she had a bf but made out with me anyway

a really hot 40 yr old

dating apps are rigged. i spent money and buy the premium, get all these matches for a week then immediately afterwards get nothing.

next week i have a date with a 19 yr old. ive been on snapchat and all these younger alt girls follow me but have no idea im as old as i am because like i said, i look younger. unfortunately, its going to say im 37 on my dating apps next week, as its going to be my birthday.

ive never been married. the closest was my recent BPD ex. theres been two girls in the past who wanted to a future with me with kids and all that, but they werent white and i cant justify bringing a mutt into the world with a liberal mom

ppl hate me for dating teens in my 30s but many of them got fat an ugly after 23 btw

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My parents told me I need to move out and start my life and settle down. Rent starts at 1300 bucks and I make 12 bucks an hour despite getting a degree in computer science. All the woman at the ripe old age of 21 are birth controlled, obese, single moms. When told these facts my mom said, “You have to make it work like we did it was hard back then too. You need to lower your standards there is nothing wrong with plus size woman and there isn’t anything wrong with being a stepfather I know a man who’s happy raising another man’s children.” Can someone explain to me what these two retards are thinking? Also explain how to deal with a society where basic milestones are impossible to achieve.

My dad went to college and got a meme degree. He ended up getting a meme job with the degree. At my age he had three kids. He was able to buy a house and support my mom and three kids.

I got a much better degree and struggle to make anywhere near what he makes. I did the math and found out if my parents gave their house to me I still couldn't afford the upkeep, much less a mortgage, a wife, and three kids. The past four years have set me back so much I am actually making the least amount of money I ever have.

I would love to be a father and support a wife and kids with a great job. Society isn't letting me. I don't want to be blackpilled but I don't see any alternative. As I get older and the door starts to close on a family I'm starting to resign my fate and try to think of a different future.